Its friday march 18th and today i have decided something important...... Life has offically lost its zest

Im so confused with life right now

Hi

Lover's Island

Somewhere there is a place called lovers island. You will know its lovers island because it sits between two rocks that come together and form a heart. On this island is a small house where a young couple lives. This house has three rooms. The first room is a kitchen/ bedroom, where the couple can sleep as long as they want and if they ever get hungry they can whip up a tasty lil snack. The bed has a giant quilt so they never get cold. The second room is the bathroom, this is the room where ..... thats right they take baths =). the third room is the entertainment room where they can duel it out on Call of Duty since the girl thinks she can beat the boy (she cant) or where they can cuddle up on the couch watching movies that they will probably start laughing at during the sad scenes. The girl will start laughing first. Outside the couple can sit in the sand and build most excellent sand castles or just lay in the sand and enjoy the weather. Lover's Island is an amazing place thats .... perfect, almost as perfect as the girl mentioned in the story

Realize

Well today I found out my girlfriend was hiding something from me that she heard. she heard that her ex said that I called her easy behind her back. Well as usual my pride got the best of me and I got upset. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt him and I wanted to so bad.... but when I looked into her eyes I just couldn't bring myself to do it. me and her talk over facebook and by the time we got done talking I realized something.... when I was with my ex deep down I always felt like there was someone better out there I was meant to give my heart too, Tonight I realized that my girlfriend was that person. Ever since I first saw her at school I felt like I had to know her. When me and her became friends, I realized that I was in love with her, now I realize that I cant live without her. Shes like my other half, she completes me

Divorce

Well recently I found out that my mom decided to get a divorce from my dad, nothing says marry christmas like divorce jk. Now my life is currently turned upside down, I cant even be in my own house tonight, because my dads coming home tomorrow and my mother does not want me and my lil sister to be there when they talk. I think they both are acting stupid and selfish neither of them care about what the other one wants nor what me and my sister want. I dont see why she couldnt at least wait till after the holidays instead of ruining it for everyone. So as you can probably tell things have been kind of rough for me lately, but even when things are crappy there are some things that brighten up your day. The thing thats kept me from totally losing it is my angel, the love of my life, the most amazing girl ever, Baby G. No one will ever know how much shes helped me with this when I found out about the divorce she was the only person I decided to tell. I wanted her to know about it because I knew if there was anyone I could talk to to help me through it, it was her. She was amazing, she didnt know what to say but thats ok just the fact that she was there for me and I could talk to her about it was good enough. I dont think I could have talked about it with anyone else the way I did with her. Today me and her went bowling with one of my friends, it was exactly what I needed. I dont think I would of been able to handle it without her. I dont think she will ever know how much she helped me, or how much it ment to me. Well thats about all I got to say right, I will post when I find out what exactly is going to happy with my family, but until then cherish your loved ones because you never know how long you have together. 

The future

The future is always here before we know it. Iam currently a Junior in highschool and in two years I will be out of highschool and on my way to college! I dont even know what I want to be yet. Ive got a few ideas, Im thinking about Police officer, Lawyer, Doctor, and Psychiatrist. But the main thing im worried about is my Baby G. she is currently a freshmen in highschool which means when I graduate she will only be a sophmore, what are we supposed to do when I go to college? will her parents even let us keep dateing,  or will they say we have to breakup? These are the things I worry about in the back of my mind. I have no idea what to do.....