The future

The future is always here before we know it. Iam currently a Junior in highschool and in two years I will be out of highschool and on my way to college! I dont even know what I want to be yet. Ive got a few ideas, Im thinking about Police officer, Lawyer, Doctor, and Psychiatrist. But the main thing im worried about is my Baby G. she is currently a freshmen in highschool which means when I graduate she will only be a sophmore, what are we supposed to do when I go to college? will her parents even let us keep dateing,  or will they say we have to breakup? These are the things I worry about in the back of my mind. I have no idea what to do.....

it's weird

Its weird, I always have something I want to write about, or say to somebody but I never know exactly how to say it so I sit in my room thinking about it and think about it until soon it leads me to thinking about something else, and then that leads me to ...... idk what it leads me to. Im so lost with life, when will it get easier? I sit here everyday and.... idk I feel like im drowning sometimes and idk what to do. I dont even know why or how I feel like im drowning but I just do for some reason. Oh well I guess thats something normal that happens to people.... I hope =(

Thanksgiving

Well thanksgiving is here once again, and this year for once im actually thankful for things. I thankful for my friends, my family, my gingy hair =), but the thing im most thankful for is my Baby; baby G. she is the most amazing thing to happen to my life im so thankful that I met her and she became my best friend. Im also thankful that we have a wonderful relationship even though it seems like all our friend's relationships are crumbling before their eyes. I wish I would have gotten to see her today but she went out of town with her family. Im kind of sad I wont get to see her the remainder of the vacation, but im also kind of happy I dont. The time we spend apart is what makes the time we spend together so special.

My last two posts

The two posts before this one was stuff I wrote a long time ago when I was in a bad place. I was always depressed I felt all alone, and well I was all around bad. But now im in a much better place thanks to Mi Amur Baby G. and all my friends, if it wasnt for them I would still be in that bad place 

Insane

There once was a girl as pretty as could be
The prettiest girl you ever did see
But this girl had a terrible curse
That she could not throw away like some used purse
For this girl could not love just one man
This is why from relationships she ran
She was horribly obsessed with sex
Dont believe me? Just ask her ex
Soon she will be dead
Because she invited the wrong man into her bed

A dieing stranger

As she lays down in the flames of unholy turmoil. A young man reaches out to her, but she looks away. The young man tries to pull her from the flames but she will not come. The young man doesnt understand why she stays in the flames but he doesnt try to save her no more instead he sits and watches as the girl he loved was burned away to ash. When she took her last breath she asked the young man "do you still love me?" the young man looked into her eyes and cried " the girl I loved died a long time ago you are nothing but a dieing stranger". She died with a fadeing smile

death

While driving my sister to my grandmas house, I almost got in a car accident. We were driving down an empty road and stupid me was trying to change the CD, I guess I took my eyes off the road for to long and started going into the ditch. Well out of instinct I jerked the steering wheel to try and get back on the road. I ended up losing control of my Truck spun across the road, through the ditch on the other side, and nearly into the interstate. If there was any cars me and my sister would be seriously injured, or worse. after I got back on the road and started driving to my house. My mind started racing, what if I wasnt so lucky, what if me and my sister had died? But the one thing that kept going through my head more than anything, what if I never got to see the girl I love again? What if I never got the chance to tell her how much I loved her? What if..... she was with me when it happened? If she was there and something bad happened I wouldnt be able to live with myself .....

Baby G.... again

Well me and Baby G are fineally going out, I couldnt be more happy I love her like crazy,I have an amazing time with her, shes slowly became the only reason I get up in the mornings. I honestly dont know what I would do without her